I can relate to the depression. I too suffer from that. I might have a hint for you to get the disability thing to happen faster. A lawyer told me to have my sister write to the judge who had my case and say that she was afraid that I was going to commit sucide. It was true. I felt that bad. So, my case was put in a file so my trial would be attended to sooner. Three weeks later I was standing before the judge. His suggestion really helped in my case. He also never charged me because he said that I didn't need him because my records spoke for themselves. I was granted full disablilty that very day. I am embarrased that I have to take it but I need it. But unfortuantly it doesn't end there. I only receive 796.00 a month and that's not enough to live on. I'm struggling to keep my home hoping that my mortgage company will work with me and help to modify my loan. The payment is now 1,267.00 a month so it's not too hard to see that it won't work. I will probably not have my home much longer and I have no where to go. i sold my car to make my last payment and that was 5 months ago. I finally got Medicare and I might be able to get help with Medicaid too because my income level is so low. I want to work so badly. I loved my job as a personal trainer. I've pushed all of my friends away and at times I have wanted to die. I am so tired of fighting to live. I've already survived lung and breast cancer and these new rare diseases and cancer is making me want to give up. I'm just too tired to live. I have a 20 year old cat named "Tink" and she is the only reason that I am still on this earth. When she goes, so will I. I just can't bear leaving her alone with someone new so I am living for her. Hopefully you'll get enough disability so you can live. As women, we wern't paid as much although we worked, so again, we won't get paid enough, on disability. Try to get someone close to you to write the judge. If he or she has a heart at all, he'll see you a lot sooner if he thinks your life is in danger. It's just sad that it doesn't take care of all of the problems that we face everyday. It goes on and on......I guess that's life.....if we choose to live it. Take care, Paula
Hi, It took me 2 years to get disability. My sister wrote the judge and said she was afraid I would commit sucide and he moved my hearing up and put me in the emergency file. I had a lot going on then too. Maybe try that. It may help. And I didn't even use a lawyer, the judge said that my health records spoke for themselvs and granted me full disablity then and there. Good luk, Paula aka Tink 2
I lost a lot of my teeth due to treatment after lung and breast cancer. I'm embarrased to be in public and it's hard to eat. I am sick again with a rare stem cell disorder(polycethemia Vera) and the meds from that are making my mouth dry which I found is the biggest reasons for decay. even though I kept my teeth brushed, they still decayed due to my dry mouth. I couldn't afford the stuff that helps to moristoerise the mouth. I am now trying the "snap on teeth" but have worn through them in less than 6 months and 3 grand later. I am ready to give up. But I guess losing my teeth isn't so bad since I won't have a roof over my head either. I hate cancer. Why me? Tink 2
I don't think I would put my real email address out there for every weirdo to write you. Keep that private. If someone wants to give you money, they can do it through this site that you're on. You might be setting yourself up for a lot of trouble and a lot of junk mail. Just a thought.....tink2
Have you found help with your teeth? I live in Virginia and even the free clinic charges a lot. I've had an abcsessed tooth for over 6 months that I've been controlling with antibiotics. It's my front tooth and I am afraid that I will end up losing it because I've waited so long. Right now I am using "snap on" teeth that my dentist suggested. I really like them but there are problems with them too. I have already snapped the front teeth in two and the lower one's have holes in them. I've only had them for 4 months. I had lung and breast cancer and my dentist said that was why my teeth were doing what they are. I have 2 teeth that have broken off at the gum. I hate it and I'm in pain most of the time. I could use any help if you have info on where to go. Thanks, Paula aka Tink
Hey Strawberry. Have you had any luck in getting a used care? I sold mine to pay for my last months mortgage payment 4 months, so I don't have one either. Let me know if you have had any luck. Thanks, Paula aka tink
I can relate Girdy. i am 53 years old and was fired from my job of 8 years when they learned that I had cancer again. I've already survived lung and breasr cancer. John's Hopkin's diagnosedrecently diagnosed me with Polycethemia Vera(rare stem cell disorder) Thrombocythemia, Fibromylagia and severe depression. I haven't been able to work for over 2 and a half years. I loved my job and still miss it. Were you able to get help with your home or anything? Please let me know. I am desperate. I'm going to lose my home and I no where to g0. thanks for listening, Paula aka tink
I would like to get a government grant but everyone that I've looked at wants money, that I don't have , for it. Right now I have 2$ in my pocket. Paula aka tink
If I had 250$ I wouldn't be here. I just need help with someone that will help me refinance my loan to a payment that I can afford. I only get 796.00$ a month from disability. paula aka tink
